5.19.2011

God Sees Value in Me and I am Valuable

After sharing my story the night before, my mind is filled with doubts and fears on what the day ahead will bring. Sharing our most embarrassing stories during breakfast helps, but only a little. I'm left sitting at a table by the lake trying to sort out the facts and lies in my head.

I pray.

"Lord, give me a peace of mind and of hear for whatever challenges I face today. Allow me to be open and honest and most of all, without fear. I pray against Satan's lies and tauntings of past event and things I've done. Lord, be with me today. Surround me with your Holy Spirit. Fill me with Your love and grace. In Your Son's name, Amen"

My 30-day TAWG journey leads me to reading Psalm 32.

"Oh, what JOY for those
whose disobedience is FORGIVEN,
whose sin is put OUT OF SIGHT!
Yes, what JOY for those
whose record the Lord has CLEARED OF GUILT,
whose lives are lived in complete HONESTY!

When I refused to confess my sin,
my body wasted away,
and I groaned all day long.
Day and night your hand of DISCIPLINE was heavy on me.
My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat.

Finally, I CONFESSED all my sins to you
and stopped trying to hide my guilt.
I said to myself, 'I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.'
And you FORGAVE ME! All my guilt is GONE..."

God is FORGIVING.


It got even better when I came across 2 Corinthians 12:8-10 soon after.

"Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, 'My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.' So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That's why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. FOR WHEN I AM WEAK, THEN I AM STRONG."

God sees VALUE in me and I am VALUABLE.


God knows exactly what He is doing. I'm usually so stuck in my ways or doing things on my own, that I rarely trust His timing or His plan at all. It's amazing that even in the midst of such a major step in my life, He was in the center of it all and had greater things planned for me. Telling my story may not have been easy, but trusting in God gave my strength and hope for the future.


Little did I know how much I was holding back...

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