On Friday November 23rd, I sent Big Blue back into the world of car salesmen, trickery, money, and repairs. Yes, it was Black Friday of 2007 that I got my new car. And as weird as it may be, I have found that I am much like Big Blue, my trusty pickup with numerous problems.
The color: Blue...also seen as a feeling of sadness which has consumed me as of late.
The condition: Slightly rusted, fair, not always working properly, some mistreating...perhaps looked at as not being up to par all the time, having several faults, not being treated as the gift, or luxury, that it is.
The uniqueness: Not completely rare, yet not overly common either...still a one of a kind in its own way.
The space: Can hold up to five people in a tight squeeze, but has only ever had up to two passengers...has the availability for many people, but no people are available.
The price: Overall, has a descent trade-in value, but individual price can only get higher with repairs...seems to be easily traded in for something better and can be something to easily get rid of for its many problems; hopefully someday it will be worth every penny.
Fair well Big Blue. I wish you all sorts of luck in your future, and don't ever forget--somewhere, somebody misses you...
11.26.2007
11.09.2007
The New Age Has Come...Where Have I Been?
So, I discovered something today while at work...
Scenario:
Two customers come up to the counter, a woman probably high twenties/low thirties, and also a young girl about eight or nine who, I believe was her daughter.
Like I'm supposed to, I say: "Hi, welcome to Starbucks! What can we get for you today?"
After a few seconds, I take into consideration the quizzical look upon the girl's face and I offer to help her out. I ask: "Would you like a cold or hot drink this evening?"
She replies with a very unexpected answer: "I think I want a gingerbread latte, but with not that much espresso in it, but to the point where it still tastes good."
I am shocked. Eight years old? Asking for a specific drink and naming its specific ingredients? Not to mention the fact that its ESPRESSO!? Now don't get me wrong, but when I was eight years old, I knew coffee drinks as: "Those drinks with the yucky taste." Not until I began working at a coffeeshop when I turned fifteen did I even know what was in a latte, let alone the fact that it was espresso that gave it its 'punch'.
Anyways, I continued on and asked the mother what she would like.
To my surprise, again, I was given the response: "Yeah, I'd like a small hot chocolate please, with extra whipped cream."
.....Role switching? I think not. Our world is passing by me so quickly. Where have I been?!
Scenario:
Two customers come up to the counter, a woman probably high twenties/low thirties, and also a young girl about eight or nine who, I believe was her daughter.
Like I'm supposed to, I say: "Hi, welcome to Starbucks! What can we get for you today?"
After a few seconds, I take into consideration the quizzical look upon the girl's face and I offer to help her out. I ask: "Would you like a cold or hot drink this evening?"
She replies with a very unexpected answer: "I think I want a gingerbread latte, but with not that much espresso in it, but to the point where it still tastes good."
I am shocked. Eight years old? Asking for a specific drink and naming its specific ingredients? Not to mention the fact that its ESPRESSO!? Now don't get me wrong, but when I was eight years old, I knew coffee drinks as: "Those drinks with the yucky taste." Not until I began working at a coffeeshop when I turned fifteen did I even know what was in a latte, let alone the fact that it was espresso that gave it its 'punch'.
Anyways, I continued on and asked the mother what she would like.
To my surprise, again, I was given the response: "Yeah, I'd like a small hot chocolate please, with extra whipped cream."
.....Role switching? I think not. Our world is passing by me so quickly. Where have I been?!
11.05.2007
Change vs Regret
If a person wished to change something in their past, does that necessarily mean that there is regret in that person's life?
Now, I'm not usually one to regret the past; in fact, I would never say the word "regret" as it referred to my life. I've always liked to look at it as the common "Learn from your mistakes" approach. But what about things that we wish could be different, but that weren't up to us? I've had many instances in which I wish I could change things, but I had no power or authority to do so. And lately, I've just been wondering "What if?" What if I had done this, then would that be different? What if I hadn't gone there, then would that have still happened? What if I was just patient, then would there still be a friendship? What if I had started this earlier, would I be farther in life?
Most of these questions have specifics behind them, but in each circumstance, does questioning certain aspects of your life always mean that you regret something? If I could change things to make them better, does that necessarily mean that they are bad now?
If I had the power to change anything in my life, it would most likely be 'relationships' in a condensed bubble. I look at my life and think about how certain relationships with friends, family, and even God could be altered by one or two moves.
In friendships, as complicated as some are, there are unexplainable occurances that unfortunately can't be changed. But in others, I have to be honest and take the blame. Friendships...true, honest, amazing, worth-while friendships are nearly impossible to find. And even though I've been able to make some awesome friends, there are still some friendships that I've always wondered about...wondering if they'd last longer if this or that happened, or if they were stronger had I done this, etc.
My relationships with family are...well, not as strong as I've wanted. I grew up with just my mom, so we are able to maintain a pretty descent relationship, but that one got kind of rocky in the teen years of course. With her being a single mom, there were relationships with potential family members, aka the men she'd date every once in awhile and his family. And I have seen them come and go. Things like that where I have no decisions in the matter, but I wish they had stayed or something. The remainder of my family and the relationships with those people have been rather nonexistent. I'd change that, or at least attempt to change that, if I could go back in time. I guess it's not too late to get in touch with family members, but there's just so much time to make up that half of the time, it seems pointless.
My relationship with God is something that I often ponder over. I've only recently (within the past 4-5 years) gotten to know Him. I never grew up in a Christian home, yet I wasn't influenced in a negative way in my life leading up to my freshman year of high school. I've always wondered what my life would be like if I had began my walk with Him earlier. I mean, here I am, a freshman in college, and there are so many things in the Bible that a little kid could recite to me that I would have no clue about. I have so much learning to do, but it seems as though it is nearly impossible to make up 15 whole years... There are so many questions, but so many answers that it overflows my mind!
As much as everyone would love to say that they have no regrets in there life, I have realized that it cannot be the case. Whether big or small, I think everyone has slight regret in some form or another, including myself. And when we say that we are going to "learn from our mistakes", I think in some cases, we mean that we are going to "learn from our regrets, in hopes not to have anymore."
PS...I ramble alot...so if none of this makes sense to you, it'll take many more words to sort it out :)
Now, I'm not usually one to regret the past; in fact, I would never say the word "regret" as it referred to my life. I've always liked to look at it as the common "Learn from your mistakes" approach. But what about things that we wish could be different, but that weren't up to us? I've had many instances in which I wish I could change things, but I had no power or authority to do so. And lately, I've just been wondering "What if?" What if I had done this, then would that be different? What if I hadn't gone there, then would that have still happened? What if I was just patient, then would there still be a friendship? What if I had started this earlier, would I be farther in life?
Most of these questions have specifics behind them, but in each circumstance, does questioning certain aspects of your life always mean that you regret something? If I could change things to make them better, does that necessarily mean that they are bad now?
If I had the power to change anything in my life, it would most likely be 'relationships' in a condensed bubble. I look at my life and think about how certain relationships with friends, family, and even God could be altered by one or two moves.
In friendships, as complicated as some are, there are unexplainable occurances that unfortunately can't be changed. But in others, I have to be honest and take the blame. Friendships...true, honest, amazing, worth-while friendships are nearly impossible to find. And even though I've been able to make some awesome friends, there are still some friendships that I've always wondered about...wondering if they'd last longer if this or that happened, or if they were stronger had I done this, etc.
My relationships with family are...well, not as strong as I've wanted. I grew up with just my mom, so we are able to maintain a pretty descent relationship, but that one got kind of rocky in the teen years of course. With her being a single mom, there were relationships with potential family members, aka the men she'd date every once in awhile and his family. And I have seen them come and go. Things like that where I have no decisions in the matter, but I wish they had stayed or something. The remainder of my family and the relationships with those people have been rather nonexistent. I'd change that, or at least attempt to change that, if I could go back in time. I guess it's not too late to get in touch with family members, but there's just so much time to make up that half of the time, it seems pointless.
My relationship with God is something that I often ponder over. I've only recently (within the past 4-5 years) gotten to know Him. I never grew up in a Christian home, yet I wasn't influenced in a negative way in my life leading up to my freshman year of high school. I've always wondered what my life would be like if I had began my walk with Him earlier. I mean, here I am, a freshman in college, and there are so many things in the Bible that a little kid could recite to me that I would have no clue about. I have so much learning to do, but it seems as though it is nearly impossible to make up 15 whole years... There are so many questions, but so many answers that it overflows my mind!
As much as everyone would love to say that they have no regrets in there life, I have realized that it cannot be the case. Whether big or small, I think everyone has slight regret in some form or another, including myself. And when we say that we are going to "learn from our mistakes", I think in some cases, we mean that we are going to "learn from our regrets, in hopes not to have anymore."
PS...I ramble alot...so if none of this makes sense to you, it'll take many more words to sort it out :)
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