A Long Road Ahead

As I read my journal from June 1st, 2010, I was reminded quickly of why my feelings toward my summer were so sour. It was at this point, only two weeks into our internship, that reality set in. And unfortunately with that reality, I was already counting down until the summer was over.

You see, this was a summer of firsts.

First time having a scheduled daily TAWG for an hour everyday.
First time having the title of 'intern.'
First time teaching on a Wednesday night.
First time sharing my testimony with a large group.
First time living away from home.
And lastly, first time having roommates.

While there are others to add to this list, it was these 'firsts' that truly challenged me and helped me grow over the summer. The most challenging and frustrating, yet exciting and refreshing, was the fact that I was now living in a house, without my mom, and with five other girls. What could be so terrible about that? Well, while I won't go into details about the, now, petty issues of the house, I can say that putting six girls with six very different and strong personalities under one roof is going to be...eventful to say the least!

With my frustrations in the midst of my TAWGs, my struggles with wondering why I was even here, and just my negative attitude in general on how the summer was not going the way I expected, this did not help when things got rough at home. There was so much anger in my heart and the enemy was loving it. I didn't want to be the bitter person. I didn't want to be the one to stereotype or judge or gossip or cause problems. I didn't want to be that person. So I prayed and prayed... and the summer continued. Only 10 weeks to go.