Normally, I am not a huge fan of change. In fact, I try to avoid it because it's just easier to stick with a pattern in life. However, change needs to happen if you can't even keep up with the rhythm of life.
My weekly schedule is nuts. Ever since I got back from my vacation, I've been running around like crazy. Every single day has been filled with something, whether it's been school, working at one of my two jobs, helping with junior high or young adult ministries, or doing homework. Whenever telling people this, I often get the response, "How are you surviving?" or "When on earth do you get to have fun?" Well, I'm not quite sure how I'm surviving necessarily. The lack of sleep, quick pace of life, and added stress to life in general is definitely hard to deal with. Hence, bringing me to the main subject of this blog.
My goal is not to make people feel bad about my life being so busy, because I know everybody's lives are crazy. But for me personally, I am going to do something about it because life is slowly draining me to a very dry sponge and I can't keep going on like I am. I'm currently in the process of a very important decision that has both its pros and cons, which I am taking very seriously. I need to make time for myself, my friends, my junior highers, and most importantly my Savior. In order for me to survive the craziness of life, I NEED my encouragement from my closest friends and I NEED personal time to grow closer to God. I want to be a light in the darkness. I want to be patient about my future. I want to invest in others and make a difference in the lives I am closest to. I want to wake up and look forward to each day instead of dreading the things on my to-do lists. I want to feel a peace about my relationship with Him so that I can feel comfort in my hardest days. Only God can provide this for me and I NEED Him. So, I'm taking a stand in my own life and setting my priorities straight for what is best for ME, not anybody else. I've always had a hard time saying 'no' to people. I've always struggled not being able to satisfy the ones around me, especially family. This will be a big step for myself, and it will create tension with the woman who gave me life, but I need to do it. So, this is me, announcing that there will be a change. And I am praying it's the right thing. I hope you guys can pray a little prayer for me as well. I'll keep you up to date, don't worry.
1 comment:
IMNSHO, the important thing is to include yourself into the schedule. Schedule time for yourself along with all your other activities... Doesn't matter if it's going out with friends, reading a book alone in your room or going for a bike ride... take time and set it aside for yourself.
Post a Comment