Afterlife

As if there isn't enough stuff on my plate with end of semester projects, presentations, and papers to do, I also get the lovely privilege of giving the devotional in the Effect next week. Now, normally, I'm not too bothered with public speaking. That is, I managed to ace it in high school and college and seem to do fine in any other presentation at school. However, being that I'm at a public school, these things have never dealt with Christ or truth or holiness or anything that could ever be spoken in a message or sermon. The only time I have ever spoken at the Effect, which consumed all of my nerves for the weeks leading up to it, was when I was asked to share my story. That was hard enough having to open up in front of peers. But for some reason, I'm really struggling with the idea of having to lead a devotional for those same peers. It seems easier to share about my personal life than to share on the subject of Heaven and Hell. Yeah, that's right, the subject of afterlife got passed on to me.

Up until the past few months, I never really researched or read about Heaven or Hell. I've just kinda always believed what I was taught in Youth Group, Small Groups, and Sunday Sermons. Now that I'm having to speak on the subject, I'm finding myself lost at what I even believe or what I even know!

If Jesus descended from Heaven tomorrow, where do I see myself going after judgment?
Does my destination after I die affect how I am currently living?
God is forgiving and just, but do I truly understand those words and their meanings?
Why should constant worshiping be appealing to us?
Is there a Hell? (no, I don't intend to bring Rob Bell in on this)

Still processing, clearly. Still questioning. Still seeking.

Praying for guidance and the words to speak.